Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Urgh

I feel like an old man

"Filled with regret
Waiting to die alone.." - Inception

Choi! Not yet.
But yes me body aches
My nose sneezes non stop
I live in denial
But there's no denying it
I'm sick

One lesson I learned
Never exercise when you
Don't have enough sleep
And lesson number 2
Always have enough sleep
Or you'll become an old man

~eNd~

Busy December

Phew it's been a while ain't it not? Couldn't find the time/inspiration to blog though, as December was a superbly hectic month for me. What's with preparing for Christmas, youth camps, FYP and now making the video for Doreen for her preaching next month. Phew.

Won't go into detail about everything, which means I'll just give a brief summary:

(1) Campus Connect Christmas Celebration: It was good, with me preparing the sketch and Kai Jun preparing the mime. I didn't totally do my part though; I had MJ, Irena and Alex to thank, a lot - Irena and Alex for coming up with the script, and MJ with helping out in the acting. And ohh, PeiLee too. For the idea.

(2) Youth Camp 2010: I praise God for this camp, because it touched me in some ways. God has also shown me that He can work in "funny" ways, and through the camp I was spoken to. I also had the chance to be totally in charge of the equipments and stuff, and the entire camp went well.

(3) FYP: Not too shabby. I finally know what to do for Chapter 1 and 2, though yes I should be in Chapter 3 or 4 by now. =D Working on it still.

(4) Video making: Ahh. This is the hard one. I've made a video once, but I failed miserably. As in, miserably. Blek. But I'm going to do it again though, this time with the help of Joel. =D

Plus the fact that I'm sick now, and my sneezing rate increased a lot of late. This is certainly not an ideal way of ending 2010.

But well, I did have a rare family trip with my family. For once we were all free =D

I guess I'll cya 2011. =)

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Smiling Quote

I recently came up with this while I was chatting with a good friend of mine. Here goes:

"Memories that can make you smile is worth a space in your brain."

Ain't it?

~eNd~

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Appreciation

He saw his dad lying on the chair. His dad's hair was a bit messy, which made it look even worse. His face looked superbly tired.

Man he looks dead.

"Snap out of it!" he thought to himself. "He's only sick." Just sick. Cough, sore throat. The usual.

But it looked so real.

For that 5 seconds (ok I made that up), and for once in his life, he had that fear in his heart. The kind of fear that purged right in to the bottom of his heart. The kind of fear that makes one re-thinks about life. The kind of fear that makes one think, about life and death.

His father was sick since Tuesday. Finishing an entire strip of anti-biotics and a whole bottle of cough mixture didn't help one bit. It only probably stopped it from getting worse. He took his father to the doctor, and the doctor gave him new medication.

What struck him was this: his father is only sick, but already looks so bad. What more if he had something worse? What will happen when next time, his father requires operation?

It reminded him of this cliche often repeated: "Life is short." It's what people add AFTER it that doesn't make it sound nice sometimes. However, there are those who add this: "Life is short. Appreciate your love ones."

It also reminded him of the word "responsibility". When his father "goes", he'll be in charge of taking of the family, even though he has an older sister. What's he going to do then? He's not prepared. Or at least he feels he isn't. Yet.

Whatever it is, he will have to look forward. The only problem will be the manner in which he looks forward with, though there isn't any doubt who to look forward with. ;)

~eNd~

Saturday, November 27, 2010

What to do when your car battery is dead

Hi all. I'm posting this "what-to-do" tip to everyone after what happened to my family. My dad's car battery died, but he didn't panic, 'cause he already knows what to do, so I just want to share this with you.

Before that however, let's break it down to a few case scenario:

(1) If your car battery dies in a place where you have contacts/people to help
This is what you do (and it should be standard procedure). Call your friend(s), and ask if they have a cable that can charge their car battery to yours. If they do, ask them to bring the cable, connect (-) negative to (-) negative, and (+) positive to (+) positive. Accelerate the car (but make sure it's on breaks), and try to start the your car.

If that fails, don't panic. Do THIS: SWAP the car batteries (assuming all car batteries are standard size). Before you do that, make sure you turn on the engine of the car with the better battery. The battery only serves as a starter to the car, but once taken out, it is still able to mobilize. Of course, radio, lights and air-con will not work, but at least you can drive the car away to the nearest mechanic.

Transfer the battery to the other car, start it up, and go to the nearest mechanic straight away. If it's at night, bring the respective cars home, and immediately fix it the following day. If the following day is a Sunday, sucks to you then. Half joking. Wait for Monday. XD

Ahha, who ever said the situation will happen as according to the scenario above? Talk about Lady Luck not being with you. You could be:
(2) stuck in the middle of nowhere, or in a state/city with contacts miles away from you.

Watcha gonna do then? Panic? Say "We're gonna die!!" "This is the end of me!!" "I regret not doing this this this this..."? Of course not! What happened to "think positive" these days? Sheesh.

Anyways, try to (1) call for the nearest mechanic/toll car. Yeah expensive, but what to do? You don't have much of a choice. (2) Ask for assistance from other drivers. That's about your only alternate option.

Whatever you do, don't PANIC. Think of ways to SOLVE.THE.DAMN.PROBLEM. There's bound to be one. Anyways, take care while you're on the road, and make sure your cars are equipped. Otherwise, how do you take out the battery? =D

Best of luck.

PS: If anyone has better suggestions/think my suggestions are crap, do post it in my comment box. We'd all like to learn. Thanks =)

~eNd~

Sunday, November 21, 2010

The people that we don't expect to hurt,
We hurt them worst.
The people we'd like to hurt,
We keep quiet.

The people we don't expect hurting us,
Hurts us the most.
The people we think will hurt us most.
Treats us the best.

Things we want to avoid,
Comes to us.
Things we want to look forward,
Avoids us.

Words of appreciation we want to hear,
Are few.
Words of hurt and cursing,
We hear it all the time.

When we want something,
It's expensive.
When we don't want it anymore,
It's on sale.

You get what I'm saying here?
So how about this?

God's word and promise,
We don't follow and proclaim.
Things of the world?
We chase like there's no tomorrow.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Understanding Us

Ever wonder why is it that humans have bad characteristics? What's the point of having it? It causes trouble EVERYWHERE. In your home, in class, at your work place, and yeah, even in church. Everybody has something that everybody else hates. Agree?

Although it's also true that every human has good characteristic, WHO TALKS ABOUT THEM? It's nothing nice to talk "nice" about others. Why? 'Cause of the bad characteristics that "covers" it so to speak. Pastor John Kwan, LifeGame founder gave this very good illustration:

"Let's say I slap this guy. And then I go and do good deeds to others. Others may praise me, but no matter what good I do, it will NEVER cover up for the slap I gave him."

Fill me now?

Once someone knows about someone else's dark side, boy, does the word "bad impression" not come in quickly enough. They will from that point, start to look at that person differently. They'll start to be more careful.

Of course, some will forgive easily, 'cause it's their good friends. If it's an enemy, all the more they will hate. Woa. The power of hatred. It's the start of something dark ain't it not?

But hey, let's not forget what the Bible has taught us. In fact, the 2nd greatest commandment says this: "Love your neighbour as yourself." I believe this is universally known, but one that many indeed, struggle to follow.

So, when you put a commandment, and the rational behind God letting people have bad characteristics, you'll understand. It's simple: If everyone's perfect in this world, what's the point of God's teaching and giving of the commandments? Nobody will fight with one another, no one will hate one another. EVERYTHING WILL BE PERFECT. Then basically, there's no need for God then.

How about we see it this way: Humans have bad characteristics for a reason, that is so that we can learn to really love one another, and become more Christlike, as God has commanded us to be.

I think that sounds better, though I guess from here on out (and if you are reading this), it's a matter how we apply it, and whether we really choose to see it this way.

I end by giving you a quote from Pastor John: "Neighbours are people who gives us an opportunity to love."

God bless.

~eNd~

Thursday, November 18, 2010

The Colours of Negativity

Red is the colour of my face
The colour of when I show my anger
The colour of my fist
After a punch
The colour of blood
After I cut

Blue is the colour of my heart
They always use the term "cold heart" these days
So the only colour to represent "cold" is blue
Represents hatred in terms
Of not wanting to talk to one another
It's also the colour of being punched
Though with a bit of black and green

Black is the colour of my soul
When it becomes evil
And desires to do bad things
It also symbolises hatred
Sometimes to the extend
Of wanting to kill

But why bother saying so much
When it actually all comes
Down to this word:
SIN

It represents all colours of negativity.

~eNd~

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Again

"What fans you are. When we beat Chelsea, you say he's the man. Now we lose to Stoke, you say fire him."

Well I'm not exactly quoting Mr. Anonymous but he/she said something like that.

Sounds familiar?

Liverpool fans around the globe are once again caught in a dilemma: support/go against Roy Hodgson. At one moment it seems as if the tide has turned. 4 match winning streak, 6 games unbeaten run. Then along came Stoke, and they really "Stoke"-ed Liverpool to the brim.

OK LET'S NOT TALK ABOUT THE STATS OF THAT GAME. How about this: How the players play reflects the manager. Sounds familiar too?

Sloppy and poor. Two words to summarise the entire performance against Stoke. How does one explain this? We almost beat Arsenal, saved by a last minute equaliser; almost drew against Manchester United with NO SHOTS ON TARGET, but saved by a certain Bulgarian hattrick, beat Chelsea almost convincingly, but against the likes of Sunderland, Birmingham, Everton, Blackpool (OMG), West Brom, Wigan, Manchester City (ok never mind them - rich asses), and now Stoke.

Guess how many points we have from here? A miserable 6 points! Of course not adding the victories over Blackburn and Bolton - that's another 6 pts. Plus the 4 points against the other Big Four - 16 points in total.

From 13 games. (which means 16 of a possible - and staggering - 39 points. It's not even half.)

Now every team fancies beating Liverpool. Chelsea only recognises MU as their ONLY threat to the BPL title, though Arsenal and (even) Spurs (damn it) are having a go.

Liverpool? Top of the table. Of the bottom half.

Sorry Roy, you're time is seriously up. Unless you can explain how was it you managed to beat Chelsea (ok, maybe 'cause no Lamps, Essien and Drogba, and ohh what a difference he's made when he came on), and Blackburn (ok no Nelsen and Samba), I don't see how you can convince any fans. A manager makes his mark by winning games and taking a club to a different level. We tried to support you, but results don't lie. This is not the Liverpool team we use to know, and if you're not to blame, I don't know whose else now.

Players follow the instruction of their manager, and you can't tell us that you didn't instruct them to play like that (sloppy and poor). Every game you win buys you another match. Sorry man. You're a nice gentleman, but you seriously need to go.

Take care, and wish you a success in the future. I wouldn't say no clubs will hire you, but maybe top clubs has learned their lesson.

PS: To Purslow and co: WHAT THE HELL WENT THRU YOUR DAMN MIND WHEN HIRING HIM?! SURELY YOU KNOW DAGLISH HAS A BETTER RECORD?

Urgh...

~eNd~

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Once again

Ahh he strikes again! This time against Wigan... Although it ended in a draw...
Still... Priceless... =D

~eNd~

21 surprises =) - pick of the bunch


First of all, the unexpected present of a Sony Ericsson K800i! Of course it's not new (second-hand), but then again, it's better than the Motorolla. =P



The following goes in a storyline: =)

Once upon a time, there were 8 friends who decided to give this boy whose growing into a man a.k.a turning 21 a big box of present. They had the idea that since it's his 21st birthday, there must be 21 gifts.

The box came nicely wrapped...

... and the newly-turned 21 year old started to unwrap it. He was surprised by three things: (1) the size of it, (2) the weight of it, but number (3) caught his attention the most: SMELL.

It smelled good! But it doesn't smell of food or perfume...

His suspicion begins to rise...

... and he began to quickly unwrap the present. Then, he got to know what it is..

Ta-da! A box full of essential items for bathroom use! Here's the list of the 21:
(1) Buy 2 Free 1 Toothbrush = 3
(2) 4 bars of Protex Icy Cool Antibacterial Soup = 4
(3) 2 Deodorant Spray = 2
(4) 2 Gillette Ultragrip shaver = 2
(5) TOP washing powder = 1
(6) 3 Summers Natural body shampoo = 3
(7) New&Trendy hair shampoo = 1
(8) Brylcreem = 1
(9) Four megabig boxes of Darlie toothpaste = 4

There you have it. Seriously the pick of the bunch. XD

Thanks again everyone who gave the presents and wished me! God bless all of you =)

~eNd~




21 surprises =)

Ah, man stage now. I've reached the year where there's a Chinese saying that goes "I've got the key".

Key to what?

More growing up. More responsibilities. Bigger challenges. Tougher world. A stage where you begin to understand what totally living on your own is like. Less parents support. More of YOU supporting them instead.

And ohh. VOTING. :P

But anyways, 21 years old is also the age where I received the most birthday gifts (and I think it'll be about the only time I do), so while they're still new, I've decided to "capture" them in pictures! =D

A Polo watch from my mom! XD

Lovely wristbands from Daniel and PC =D

Two singles:
Top: Darren Evan's Consuming Fire
Bottom: Reuben Morgan's World Through Your Eyes

The Difference Maker - John C. Maxwell

Streams in the Desert - L.B. Cowman

Following Christ - Jospeh M. Stowell

Friends: The Way to reaching Generation X

Life You've Always Wanted - John Ortberg

A black Guy's Creative "L" size shirt

And ahha... The Panasonic Lumix 12 megapixel camera! Weeeeee!!!

But the pick of the bunch comes in the next blogpost....

~eNd~

Panasonic Lumix 12 megapixels' ability





Don't get it wrong. These pictures were taken while the fan was MOVING (at the speed of number 4) Cheers to cameras! =D

~eNd~

Planetshakers - Even Greater


This is one album to catch. Not only awesome music, but great lyrics to praise our Almight God!

One thing that NEVER cease to amaze me: Planetshakers' ability to bring not only briliant, but superb ideas for their songs, especially praise songs. Fully driven.

However, I have to constantly remind myself not to make comparisons/critics, 'cause no matter what it's still songs to glorify God. Phew. Tough job for someone whose into music, and a musician himself.

Whatever it may be, this album is worth the listen. =)

~eNd~

You know you're too heavy when...



Your bed bends like this! XD

~eNd~

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Long Overdue

Terry: "Urgh. What am I suppose to do to stop him? And I'm supposedly one of England's best centre back. And why does he ALWAYS score against us damn it?!"

Oh for the Kop... Celebrations at their bests. Smiles all over Anfield

Pictures can deceive: This looks like as if Terry is heading the ball away, but if you actually watch the match, he didn't even had time to react. This is Torres' second goal.

♫I have a feeling, that tonight's gonna be a good night♫

That's his name...

And that's him...

Boy, it's been long overdue isn't it? It's been a while since we saw this kind of performance, yet it's still one to remember. And the goals were scored none other than Liverpool's latest legend and number 9, Fernando Torres.

~eNd~

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Axe will fall in Anfield rising - Don Fanning

John W Henry last week began a search for reasonableness in an unreasonable world. The history of English football is the story of success being achieved by the iron will and insanity of a domineering figure.

Even Arsene Wenger, a great reformer, knows only one way. It may be erudite and civilised and touched with genius, but it is his way.

No club can rely on genius. Chelsea might have found another method, but that won't be New England Sports Ventures' way. Roman Abramovich's bankrolling of the club in the early years allowed Chelsea to become a force. Jose Mourinho may have been the manager the club needed when they needed to assert their personality -- or assume his personality.

In Carlo Ancelotti, they have found a man who might allow them to be successful and even court popularity. Chelsea are a world away from Liverpool now. In 2009, Liverpool finished above them, an astonishing achievement given the wealth Abramovich pumped in while Tom Hicks and George Gillett were pumping it out.

Liverpool have a future now at least. NESV have made a dynamic start and they have demonstrated they are prepared to take risks in order to be successful. The appointment of Damien Comolli is a gamble. All major appointments are, but NESV are trying to do something that hasn't been done or, at least, has been done quietly in the past. Even the most powerful managers rely on other people's judgement. Alex Ferguson signed Bebe without seeing him, but ultimately footballers must know that the man they are working for wants them at the club.

Comolli's arrival, Henry says, will lead to a situation where "you build consensus". Ultimately, however, one man will be sacrificed if there is failure and it will usually be the manager. It is fashionable to say that a sporting director is the "continental model" but even in cultures where coaches are used to having sporting directors or players forced upon them by presidents, it is almost always the coach who pays for failure. That won't change.

NESV will work from the idea that if you recruit the best players and pay good wages to players who deserve it, the coach can be less important. There is statistical evidence to support this idea and that may be enough for them.

Liverpool's boot room was a place of consensus during the Bob Paisley era and may be the greatest example of what NESV hope to achieve. Football's reality is that managers are always taking recommendations from agents, scouts and others. The key elements are trust and perception.

But football has not changed in the sense that there must be an overarching figure. Roy Hodgson is not that man at Liverpool. Once it is perceived that he is not signing players, it will be interesting to see how long he survives. All the talk of continental models won't save a manager when the sense is that he has been weakened.

But Liverpool and Hodgson have had a good couple of weeks and not just because they have learned to win again. Three victories appeared to ease the pressure on Hodgson, even as it was becoming clear that his authority was being diminished by the energy and new ideas of NESV.

He had no option last week but to act like all was well. His powerbase, such as it was, has been all but eroded at Liverpool. He now has the support of Jamie Carragher and Steven Gerrard and the public backing of NESV, but that may no longer be enough.

Gerrard scored a hat-trick against Napoli on Thursday night which led Carragher to describe him as Liverpool's greatest ever player. There's a case to be made that Carragher, not Gerrard, has been Liverpool's most influential player over the past five years.

The Gerrard myth needs little encouragement to re-emerge so his hat-trick last Thursday obscured the reality that his season has been dreadful. There is growing evidence that his legs have gone and if Liverpool had been run as a normal club last summer, not one on life support, then it would have made sense to sell him.

A club like Wenger's Arsenal might have decided that last summer, if £30m was on offer, was the right time to get rid of Gerrard. He is 30 now and there is no indication that he will be able to replace his explosive force with the wit and intelligence needed to control a match.

All he ever had were reactions. World-class reactions, but reactions indicative of his restless personality. Occasionally he still reacts brilliantly as he showed on Thursday night, but the myth that Liverpool was built by Gerrard persists. Liverpool must hope this inelasticity in his reputation continues until the summer when they can sell him. But this afternoon, not 45 minutes against Napoli, will demonstrate the point Gerrard has reached in his career.

Liverpool, as a team, will be tested and even if they lose, which seems likely, Hodgson must ensure they show some fight. He has made much of the players he inherited. Henry, too, seemed to absolve him of blame for the ageing squad and when they point to players like Maxi Rodriguez and Soto Kyrgiakos, they have a case.

But Hodgson did nothing to change it. The signings of Paul Konchesky, 29, Joe Cole, 28, Raul Meireles, 27, and Christian Poulsen, 30, have done little to lower the age profile and even less to improve the quality.

There was also the curious decision to allow Jamie Carragher to sign a contract extension in the final hours of the old Hicks and Gillett regime. Carragher is needed at Liverpool, at least to remind players of their responsibilities. But he is fading fast as a player. His personality may be reason enough to keep him at Liverpool and he was close to the departed managing director Christian Purslow as well as being a supporter of Hodgson's.

But if he had any say in recommending Hodgson, then foresight is not one of Carragher's attributes.

Hodgson, it is said, would never have got the job if Liverpool were not in such crisis. After the divisive final year of Rafa Benitez, some felt that Liverpool needed a unifying figure. Instead they got Roy Hodgson.

It is unprecedented in modern times for the appointment of a Liverpool manager to be met with such a lack of enthusiasm. Some blame this entirely on the unwavering loyalty of a large section of Liverpool supporters to Benitez.

This phenomenon in itself is never explored. Football fans are usually castigated for their fickleness. Yet here is a group being condemned for their steadfastness, primarily because it doesn't fit in with the agenda that all that went wrong at Liverpool was Benitez's fault.

The problem now is not Benitez but Hodgson, despite the recent victories. If Purslow wanted somebody to help the supporters forget about Benitez, he could not have picked a worse man. His appointment was met with no enthusiasm and a repeated mantra from most that he needed time. Liverpool supporters, apathetic at best, seemed to be willing patience on themselves.

But there is no need to give a manager who has been in football 30 years time. If Howard Wilkinson had been appointed, few would have said give him time. Hodgson has a body of work which allows people to judge his appointment immediately: he is a Fulham manager managing Liverpool, as demonstrated by his reaction to any criticism.

Last weekend's victory was Hodgson's first away victory in the Premier League in 442 days. These were mainly good days for Hodgson; 442 days when he was feted and became manager of the year. Nobody noticed or cared that Fulham went most of last season without an away league victory. At Liverpool, they notice.

Since Liverpool's defeat to Everton, things have improved. At home to Blackburn, Liverpool attacked and hustled with purpose for the first time this season. Against Bolton, they got a break in a dull game and Gerrard won it for them on Thursday. But they are Hodgson victories and he will take them any way he can.

He has welcomed the arrival of NESV and the appointment of Comolli. He has welcomed everything and even apologised to Benitez. But Hodgson is isolated now. The men who appointed him have gone. He is working beyond his abilities and has problems above his pay grade.

John W Henry arrived, making sense and bringing reason. It may require one act of ruthlessness if Liverpool are truly to begin making progress.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

Do or Die

"30th July 2021, Perlis: A tornado formed and struck the small state, leaving hundreds dead, and thousands more homeless. The tornado was seen forming at around 7.45 a.m, but before anyone could react or spread the news, it formed fully and destroyed many homes...."

"25 May 2027, Kuala Lumpur: A blizzrad has stunningly hit Petaling Jaya, causing public transports, air and ground alike, to stop functioning. Snow started falling early in the morning, and visibility level dropped dramatically as the hour passed, with only a 0.5 km visibility. The weather forecast predicts worse conditions for other states, including...."

Trust me, these are headlines you don't want to see.

Heck, some of it are already happening, just not in Malaysia yet. America's been hit by countless tornados; floods are happening more often due to the melting of polar-ice; more people are getting skin cancer due to the strong ray of UV sunlight.

Thing is, we KNOW what are the cause of these phenomena.

But I left out the best part: We know how to prevent it from getting worse. Campaigns are EVERYWHERE, advertisements persuades us not to do it. Even the government is starting to take action, or at least in the form of Penang banning plastic bags starting next year. But we STILL do it.

Do what?

Accept plastic bags. Use polystyrene. Throw recyclable items into the normal rubbish bin. Turn on lights when not in use. Opening burning. You name it. We still do it.

"Ohh we need plastic bags to throw rubbish." "Ohh we need polystyrene to pack our food 'cause we have nothing to pack with/ordered from outside." "Ohh 'cause I don't see any recycling bin, and I want to get rid of my bottle." "Ohh I burn because I don't want to see those waste anymore."

Believe it or not. Those are excuses we STILL CAN AFFORD to give at this stage, the stage where we no longer are able to predict when it's going to rain or shine super hot. A stage where the monsoon season gets worse, or the dry season gets drier.

There's only one thing to do now, and one thing only: Join forces to protect mother earth. "But I don't know where to go and help." Well then, let me introduce you to Yellue! It's organised by a group of students who decided that "green" is too common, and came up with a new "formula" - Yellow + Blue = Yellue! Their goal is to "ENGAGE. EXPERIENCE. SPREAD." the green idea of being responsible and working together for a Yellue! tomorrow.

You can find out more by visiting their Facebook page http://www.facebook.com/pages/Yellue-2010/159986300698766?v=info, or drop by at their campaign site at Block C, UTAR Kampar campus.

Let us all join forces together to prevent any further damage to our earth, before even the word "tree" gets taken out of the dictionary/vocabulary in the future. It's "Do or Die" for us all.

~eNd~

Monday, November 1, 2010

The Problem of Choice

We know what the Bible said. We know its commandments. We can even RECITE for crying out loud.

Problem is, we don't do it.

So what is it with us humans anyways?

Why is it that we know what we shouldn't do, but we do it, and what we SHOULD do, and don't do it? Why is it easier to do the things we shouldn't do, but it's so hard to do the things we should do?

The way I see it, it's simple, and it only comes down to ONE word, in which I didn't realise its importance till now:

CHOICE

We make choices everyday. We decide where and what to eat, who to eat with, what to wear, how to dress, daily stuff done consciously. Unconsciously, we also decide what to say, who to say it to, who to bless/curse, who to hate/love, who to listen to/ignore, who to meet/avoid, and so on.

Through all this, we're given the chance to obey what God says in the Bible, like "Love the Lord your God with all your mind, soul and strength, and LOVE YOUR NEIGHBOUR AS YOURSELF.", "Forgive others, as your Father in Heaven has forgiven you." and a lot more. Hoho, do we not know all this.

But do we do it? No. Why? 'Cause we choose not to.

Simple enough? For countless years we've been taught all these. For countless sermons we've been told that God has instructed us to love one another, as God has loved us. It's not that we can't do it. We've been blessed with the strengthening of the Holy Spirit. In fact, our main purpose on earth, is to be more Christlike.

However, only a handful would really go all out for Christ. Why? Because of choice. It STARTS from there. From making the choice to want to draw closer to God, you get to hear Him better. When you get to hear Him, you get to know what He wants. When you know what He wants, Choice number 2 is to - OBEY. From obeying, you do what He wants of you.

I'm not in that handful. It's time to be.

~eNd~

Waiting For The End - Linkin Park

This is not the end
This is not the beginning,
Just a voice like a riot
Rocking every revision
But you listen to the tone
And the violet rhythm
Though the words sound steady
Something empty's within 'em

We say Yeah!
With fists flying up in the air
Like we're holding onto something
Thats invisible there,
Cuz we're living at the mercy of
The pain and the fear
Until we dead it, Forget it,
Let it all dissapear.

Waiting for the end to come
Wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned
It's out of my control....

Flying at the speed of light
Thoughts we're spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid
It's hard to let you go...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,
I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

Sitting in an empty room
Trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last,
I wish it wasn't so...

(Oh!) I know what it takes to move on,
I know how it feels to lie,
All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what I haven't got

What was left when that fire was gone?
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on
And i don't even know what kind of things I've said
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead
So, picking up the pieces, now where to begin?
The hardest part of ending Is starting again!!

All I wanna do
Is trade this life for something new
Holding on to what i haven't got...

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Pictures at their best

Worship... Yeah, just like that. =D

Arrival of superstars XD

SandBay Community

Me =)


Me 2 - Yo what's up? XD

Everybody! =)

He and him

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

LifeGame Camp 2010, Cameron Highlands

Camp! I have a new definition for it - "an event that everyone gets together". As in literally. People you don't see often in church, or sometimes don't see at all, pops up there. Some are acceptional, others... Well. =P

Anyways, it's LifeGame Camp again. And yes, "again" because I've played this before. That was 6 years ago, so I want to see if there's any difference in the game.

(Due to a pledge made during the camp to keep what happens in LifeGame secret, nothing in the game will be shared here. In other words, that's it^^)

Of course not. There's still other things to share, like for example, the sermon.

I recorded 3 of the sermons at least, and will plan to type out the entire thing, but what I want to share is that some of the things Pastor John preached has reminded me of a few things:
(1), nothing on earth is permanent,
(2) let's not hang Jesus back on the Cross again,
(3) it's not how you start a race; it's how you finish it,
(4) let's not let the world shape our future/standard,
(5) a creation can only know its purpose by going back to the Creator,
(6) a new definition for "neighbour" - people who gives you an opportunity to love, and (7) living a different lifestyle that will not hurt God.

Of course there is more to it than this, but these are the specific things that struck me. Review the list again, and see which one speaks to you.

Anyways, will try to get some photos uploaded here. I don't have many pictures of me, 'cause I was the photographer! =D man I love taking photos, but the consequences sometimes can be - you don't have pictures of yourself. Too bad? XD

~eNd~

Monday, October 18, 2010

Long time no post and LifeGame

Hi. Sorry for not updating this blog for a long time. Lots have happened recently, especially since I just came back from an awesome camp! Will update this blog soon! Weeeeee!!!!!! =DDDDDDD

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

So, Whose Fault is it, really?

Sorry folks if I've been blogging too much about football these days, but my beloved football club seems to be falling apart, and I just want to share some of my thoughts (and frustration). Here goes:

Nothing seems to be happening right at the red half of Merseyside at the moment. In fact, nothing IS happening right at Merseyside (Everton only recently picked up their 1st win). However, Liverpool seems to be getting most of the limelight, as their troubles are more... significant, than Everton, and just today (4th October 2010), Liverpool lost to a newly promoted team - Blackpool.

The game didn't start off well - Torres was injured, immediately replaced by David N'gog, and since then Liverpool's afternoon went downhill. Call for patience have been requested, but many fans ain't going to wait till Liverpool drop further down the table. So much for Reina saying "The transition period might take up to 6 months." Sorry Reina, we don't even have 6 games now.

Let's look at what is actually wrong. Firstly, defence. I'm not too sure who to blame for this, but Liverpool has certainly leaked a LOT of goals this season - unnecessary goals. They play the ball poorly, misplace passes, misjudge timings, and wa la - you have your opponents attacking you out of absolutely NOTHING. Take the Utrecth game for example. The host had plenty of scoring opportunities. Why? 'Cause Liverpool gave it to them. Literally.

And take this. I've been reading comments from fans who watched the game, and this is what they say:

"We are defending 10-20 yards further back. This means that the defence is sitting too far from the midfield and for the first time i can remember, teams (even Northampton & Blackpool) are able to play football against us getting men in between the midfield and defence.

The midfield is all over the place. With no natural width the wide players are cutting into the centre and when we have posession there is nowhere to go with the ball – movement is shocking from the players and we haven’t stretched the play once this season. It seems as though we are playing with 10 men all the time."

That's saying something.

Secondly, and I've emphasized this many times: There's NOTHING happening up front. The only bright player is (probably) Joe Cole and Steven Gerrard. Other than that, not even Torres can do anything. Poulsen looks out of his league; Lucas has been relegated back to the bench; Babel and Pacheco are not given enough chances; Kuyt looks lost. In conclusion, Liverpool have simply no direction.

Hogdson picks the team; Hogdson decides the play. Hogdson decides who goes; Hogdson decides who to substitute. So whose fault can it be really?

And here's the best part: The Merseyside derby takes place in two weeks time. All football leagues are currently on an international break, which means Hogdson has only two weeks to fix whatever mess he has made. If he loses the derby, he might literally lose his head.

And I mean literally.

~eNd~

Nice Man; Wrong Job? - Roy Kinnear

My new book ranks managers in a unique way: amongst other things, working out how much it cost them to win each point, in relation to the expense of team they sent out in every single one of their games.

In reference only to Premier League games, it shows that Graeme Souness did a great job at Blackburn. (He even won the League Cup, but we looked only at the league.)

It shows that, in the end, Roy Hodgson did a terrible job at Blackburn (the worst relegation ever, for which he was largely responsible, as the man who guided the team to just one win in their first 14 games).

It shows that Souness did a terrible job at Newcastle (and Liverpool, but you knew that already).

It shows that Hodgson did a great job at Fulham. (But not better than Chris Coleman, incidentally.)

Above all else, we highlight, time and time again, examples of good managers faltering when asked to manage bigger clubs.

In his last 21 league games at a club expected to finish in the top six (Blackburn and Liverpool), Hodgson has won a measly two. Two wins. He left Blackburn when they were rooted to the bottom; he currently has Liverpool in the relegation zone.

But Roy seems oblivious.

“It is insulting to suggest that because you move to a new club, your methods suddenly don’t work when they’ve held you in good stead for 35 years and made you one of the most respected coaches in Europe. It’s unbelievable.”

Joe Kinnear did a great job at Wimbledon in the ‘90s; no big club in their right mind would want him anywhere near them these days. (And that’s right, at the time Newcastle weren’t a club in their right mind, either.)

Different methods are needed at different clubs because a different kind of result and performance is expected. The pressure if very different, on you and your players. You cannot set up to sit off teams when you’re a big club.

And every last error is magnified. But that’s the reason why those who succeed are made of different stuff.

Now, I write this not from the perspective of someone who expected Liverpool to be in the top four, now or in May. Or even the top eight at this point, after the fixtures we’ve had.

I write it from a refusal to accept that even with the financial problems, this is a bottom-half-of-the-table side, let alone one that should be in the relegation zone, even at what remains an early stage of the season. Teething problems are to be expected; but this feels like a dentist going at us with a pair of rusty pliers, turning a modest smile into a bloody grimace.

Yet I’ve been inundated with suggestions that it’s all Rafa’s fault. They keep coming, on and on and on. On Sky Sports, Jamie Redknapp, aided and abetted by Richard Keys and the guilt-free Souness, blamed Rafa. He’d spent loads of money and the squad wasn’t good enough.

Well, not good enough for what? Only a year ago most of those players were supposed to be good enough to challenge for the title, and it was apparently only Benítez holding them back. As many as 15 of them were at the World Cup (not always as superstars, but there all the same).

Alan Hansen is now blaming players left by Rafa, such as Ngog (our top goalscorer this season), Kyrgiakos (gives 100%) and has said Kuyt never steps up to the plate. He says it’s too early to judge Roy’s summer signings, but did criticise Jovanovic, Rafa’s summer signing.

The Squad This Summer

Hansen also mentions that Roy inherited a one-man team. I thought Alan could count a bit better than that.

Reina, Gerrard, Torres: three of the best players in their position in the country, if not the world. Any club would want them, and Rafa bought two of the three. (Same applied to Mascherano.)

Agger: a thoroughbred centre-back. Wanted by AC Milan in the fairly recent past. Skrtel: another very fine centre-back. Roughly £6m each. Kyrgiakos: about as decent as you’ll get for 4th choice at £1.5m. Then there’s Carragher; well past his best, but not exactly finished. (Trouble is, he’s undroppable.)

Johnson: one of the best attacking right-backs in the world; in the right system, likely to create loads of chances in a game (defending not the best, but faults exaggerated this season from being too exposed).

Aquilani: over his injury problems, and such a clever player who’s … now in the Juventus team. Not that Liverpool are short of passing invention (sigh). Effectively given away for the season.

Lucas, Maxi: not spectacular, but good enough to play for Brazil and Argentina. Maxi, in particular, became a key player towards the end of last season. Lucas seemed to be really progressing last season too, but has struggled this year. Then again, he looks like Pele next to Poulsen, who has usurped him.

Jovanovic – another experienced international. Not sure about him yet, but pedigree is there. Insua is another player who came in for criticism, but had the potential to improve; at 21, full-backs are just starting out.

Kuyt: not everyone’s cup of tea, but almost every manager in the game sings his praises. Integral to Holland reaching World Cup final. Guarantees 10-15 goals from the wing almost every season, and as many assists. Does the work of two players. (Hansen thinks he never steps up to the plate, but look at all the goals he’s scored and created in big games.)

Kelly and Pacheco: two youngsters with a lot of quality. Not really been trusted in the league this season, even though they are now one year older and, people expected, sure to be knocking on the door. Pacheco not even making the bench. Jonjo Shelvey – one for the future, and possibly the near future at the rate Poulsen is going. N’Gog – just 21, and just £1.5m, but seven goals already this season. Kelly was home-grown, Pacheco part of Rafa’s Spanish connection.

Ryan Babel – frustrating? Hell yes. Likely to leave, whatever happens? Yes, too. But also, good from the bench? Yes, clearly. Not trusted before the Northampton game and now totally bombed out as a result. Roy said he’d been unfairly treated in the past, but now fails to even include him in the entire squad (and this is without inappropriate Twittering). Always a handy option with his pace on the wing, but Roy sees him as a striker (who doesn’t play), and Roy doesn’t use wingers.

Benayoun and Mascharano were also part of the squad Rafa left. Of course, they’ve moved on, through no fault of Roy’s. But Roy did get £26m from those two to buy replacements. Riera and a couple of others went, too, which at least allowed Roy to bring in a number of his own players, four of whom have been regular starters when fit.

But of course, Roy didn’t get all of the transfer money to reinvest; it’s wrong to expect the squad to be quite as strong as it was. Yet by the logic used to frequently slate Rafa, Roy “has spent a lot of money”; the Reds were behind only Manchester City and Chelsea in terms of money ‘spent’. However, the Reds ranked 1st in terms of money recouped. Rafa’s net spend was never that high; Roy’s isn’t either.

All in all, however, there’s enough there to be expecting a whole lot better than the relegation zone at this stage (for the first time in over 50 years) and out of a domestic cup to the lowest-ranked team to beat the Reds in 50 years. Rafa was sacked because he could only finish 7th with players that the media said should be doing better. The summer was supposed to be all about the feelgood factor: Gerrard, Torres, Cole; new manager, hip hip hooray.

There’s been no great injury crisis, and if anything, the Reds have had a bit of the luck (contrast Sunderland goal with beach ball one, and bizarre free-kick award against Blackpool) that they lacked last season. But worse than the results, performances have been universally poor; every single first-half in 14 games has been dire. Last year was pretty bad, but there were good displays too.

There’s been no apparent method, and rather than tighten up at the back, it’s as if Phil Babb has returned with his mate Tubby Ruddock. The centre of the midfield was so invisible at times against Blackpool it was as stupefying. Gerrard was AWOL and Poulsen was lost at sea, considered dead.

The stats are damning. Liverpool have had just 65 attempts at goal this season, and the opposition have had 77 against us. Stoke have had more goal attempts.

What the Rafa-haters didn’t foresee was that while a change of manager might help some players, it could also hinder others.

“My methods have translated from Halmstads to Malmo to Orebro to Neuchatel Xamax to the Swiss national team and many other jobs as well.” Roy Hodgson.

But not to Blackburn, and only moderately so to Inter Milan (15 years ago; good first season, less good second season).

And with all due respect, none of those clubs Roy mentioned is in a major league, or is a major nation; these are not household names. Roy had the Swiss national team playing well in 1994; but then Roy Evans had Liverpool playing well around the same time. George Graham took Arsenal to a European final that year. Football has evolved dramatically in that time.

Liverpool still have a core of excellent players. And the club has its talent on the fringes. It may not be a top four squad anymore, due to too many sales in relation to purchases since 2008, but is should not even be a bottom-half of the table squad, let alone end the weekend in the relegation zone for the first time since 1964 (after a minimum of three games played).

Conceding six goals at home to Northampton, Sunderland and Blackpool, and winning none of those games, all in the space of 10 days, is unacceptable. The performances have offered nothing to cling on to. In the three most recent Anfield games the Reds have been outclassed. Blackpool were a credit to the game of football.

I’m not especially angry at Roy. I feel some sympathy for him; I don’t enjoy watching a man apparently out of his depth, flailing and drowning.

But he should not have been appointed in the first place. I won’t bring myself to say he must be sacked – he has the job, so now he needs to prove he deserves it – but as I said in the summer, his appointment was always more of a risk than the ‘safe hands’ tag suggested. And if his team loses the Merseyside derby, the calls for his resignation will be deafening.

‘Going English’ with the manager and transfers might have worked as a policy, but it needed money; therefore, drastic change was not a wise move. James Milner is a good English player, for example. He cost £26m. But without the budget, the Reds tried a sea-change, a U-turn.

This is all the folly of Christian Purslow, and that of his media cronies who badgered Benítez at every turn. (Yes, you know who you are.)

The history of warning was there with Hodgson at Blackburn, and the history there was in Spain, too.

As soon as Rafa left Valencia they crumbled. Spectacularly. The players who had wanted him gone realised the error of their ways. Valencia overachieved massively during his three seasons. After, they didn’t so much find their true level as sink right through it.

If you replace a world-class manager, you need to get it right.

Roy’s Mistakes?

• Calling the players who lost in the Carling Cup the ‘B team’, and blaming it all on them.

• Picking a full-strength team away in the Europa League, and expecting Torres’ muscles to be 100% three days later. I thought he was going to use the ‘B’ team in the early stages, as he did at Fulham?

• Not buying a striker; I know Rafa struggled to find one at the right price, but it was the clear priority of the summer. Aquilani was bought to replace Alonso, and was now fit; and so, instead of going for Meireles and then not using him properly, why not keep Aquilani and buy a striker?

• Leaving it to the 80-minute mark in several games to make the first change, when a result was needed.

• And do we really want to see Kyrgiakos as a centre-forward late in games against Northampton and Blackpool? Admittedly it nearly worked, but if we have to resort to desperate long-balls rather than try and play through lesser teams at Anfield, it’s a sign of grave concern.

• Alienating Agger. Potentially a world-class centre-back. But doesn’t fit Roy’s style, which involves not taking chances with footballers in defence. One of the best players at the club, but not utilised.

• Loaning out Insua and Aquilani, without sufficient replacements. (Might not all be Roy’s fault, this one, with Insua apparently offered to clubs by the Reds’ hierarchy.)

• Paying £5m for mediocre players who are near the end of their careers (Konchesky, and the frankly risible Poulsen). Paying £11m for Meireles – a very good player – and using him as a wide midfielder (albeit one forced to play horribly narrow). Saying Rafael Van Der Vaart doesn’t fit the profile of the kind of player he was interested in.

Biggest Error

And the biggest one of all: taking a team with players suited to pressing and rather than working with what he had, trying to reverse it. If anything was broken under Benítez, it was his relationship with Carragher and Gerrard, and one or two less-influential players.

The tactics were not the issue (look at how they were often successfully deployed at the World Cup) and maybe now people are seeing that.

Liverpool pressed high and hard – and fast from the start – and it suited Torres, Kuyt and Gerrard. It made it easier to create chances, because errors were forced. It gave the game some energy.

It now suits Samuel Eto’o at Inter: “With Mourinho we played on the counter-attack, with Benítez we press more and that’s better for us forwards because we win back the ball higher up the pitch and create more chances.”

Eto’o has 11 goals already this season, after just 16 last time. Torres has … one.

Last season I noted that Rafa was the only manager to get more than an average amount of goals from Torres. At the time, I wasn’t sure if it was just coincidence, or maybe due to the very detailed and specific advice Rafa gave him (which Torres said was incredible). Now, I’m starting to think it was mostly tactical.

Torres’ goal record in Spain was not the best; consistent, yes, but never above 13 from open play in a season (in one year he scored six additional goals from the spot). For Spain, it’s a decent international record, but not outstanding. (Spain also press, but they often delay the final pass; Torres needs the ball earlier.)

For Torres under Hodgson, it’s … one goal in nine games.

Now, he hasn’t been 100% fit. And it’s early days. But he wasn’t fully fit for large parts of the previous two seasons. And he still got 14 in 24, and 18 in 22, in those two Premier League campaigns. Often he was coming back from injury, but rarely did he look this out of sorts. Rarely was he so starved of service, so isolated; an island within Anfield.

Perhaps the new style of play doesn’t suit him? He’ll always be a great striker – pace, power, eye for all types of goal – but the tactics were always tailored to his strengths. Now it seems tailored to the strengths of Bobby Zamora.

Now, if Roy wants to change the team’s entire style, that’s down to him. But it can be argued that it makes more sense to work with what he has (or for the club to employ someone to do so), in a way that suits the players, than force his ideas onto them; especially as he doesn’t have the money to buy those who’d fit better into his system. (Not being funny, but right now, Emile Heskey would probably be better at what Torres is being asked to do.)

The style – which Hodgson has made clear he’s carried with him for 35 years – is being forced onto the players. If it works, great. If it doesn’t? Buck. Stops. There.

The next few weeks are vital in the future of the club, and so any decision can wait until that is resolved, and until after the Everton game. Win that game, and Roy might have a chance of taking his ideas into a new regime (if one finally arrives).

Fickle

I don’t want to appear fickle, but can I really be that if I never wanted him in the first place? I said as much in the summer. I didn’t say that Roy would definitely fail, but I did feel that his experience at Blackburn should not be brushed under the carpet, and that his achievements at Fulham, while admirable, do not necessarily transfer to a bigger club. I looked at his low-scoring teams that eked out a lot of draws, and that included his previous jobs at Blackburn and Inter Milan too.

Yes, I continue to remain annoyed at how the world-class manager we had was treated. But that’s a separate issue to this. (Although the media keep merging the two.)

If you have to sack a manager, you find a suitable replacement; not just one who speaks perfect English and makes life as easy as possible for you. And you don’t try to reverse a successful culture (Spanish) for one that has more faults. After all, how many great English players has the club purchased in the last 20 years? And how many great Spanish ones in the last six years alone?

If Roy stays, and turns things around, I’ll happily hold up my hands. If he wins, I win too. But if he fails, and fails as thoroughly as he currently is, it needs pointing out.

It needs pointing out that the owners are a cancer, and that those running the club know next to nothing about football. It needs to be pointed out that some players wanted an English manager, who would comfort them. We needed rid of rotation, zonal marking, Gerrard in centre-midfield, 4-4-2, and a manager who didn’t celebrate goals with backflips. How’s that working out?

It needs to be pointed out that on the basis of his team’s incoherent performances and his own bizarre press conferences, Roy Hodgson looks like the right man in the wrong job.

“I’ve had two-and-a-half wonderful years (at Fulham) where nothing ever negative was said about me and my team. Now maybe people are saying negative things. It doesn’t change anything. I work the same way as I did last year.” Roy Hodgson